Yes, finally I got my hands on “The Voudon Gnostic Workbook” (Michael Bertiaux’s)
“…in opposition to all humanistic culture, we are lured ever to the brink of chaos. We want to go where we are forbidden. We want to know what has been denied to us. We seek, in a word, the ‘more.’ And so the magician seeking the limits and then the limits beyond all those limits will constantly move closer and closer to the brink…”
“And as the magician stands on the brink of the final mystery, encounter, or total experience, he will find there is nothingness before him. He will experience the fundamental fear of all being, which is the fear of the totally unknowable.”
This is a rare occult title which sells on Amazon and Abebooks for up to £300. The book is in reasonable condition, apart from the fact that someone has written/scribbled on the title page and the inside of the back cover. But I can live with that.
The Voudon Gnostic Workbook
by Michael Bertiaux